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[poetryslamming]

Alexa Hase

angry feminist, poetry slammer

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name: alexa hase

age: 26 y/o

gender: female (queer)

sexuality: queer

nationality: german

residence: luxembourg

history

x She was born the only child to two banker parents.
x Grew up in Hamburg, Germany.
x Became a part of the LGBT+ scene as a young teenager.
x Adopted her butch style at age 15.
x Had to move at age 16 when her parents both took new jobs in Luxembourg.
x (Which they did because of her.)

x She began writing poetry after the move.
x Was engaged by a small publishing house at age 18.
x Her first poetry collection, girls shout with their mouths shut, was released a year later.

x She attends creative writing classes at Luxembourg University, but isn't actually enrolled.
x Misses Germany a lot.
x Doesn't want to walk away from her publishing house deal, so she stays where she is.

x She is always working on something new, trying to strike the next great lode of inspiration.
x Suffers recurring writer's block.

x Currently working on a poetry collection inspired by Staatsballett Berlin's mixed bill, "Tänzer/in".
x During her writer's retreat in Berlin, she meets and falls in love with ballerina, Vivien Weber.

personality

x She's angry, at her parents for not accepting her and for trying to make her change who she is, at the world for treating women unequally and unfairly and deep down, also at herself for not being able to just fit in. She's aggressive in her anger, from time to time getting into fights with others, with other girls, with full-grown men. It has landed her in detention a couple of times, that aggression.

x She's a feminist of the loud, angry, truly obnoxious kind that generally hates men and she does try to stay around women as much as possible. She doesn't shave, she dresses in a butch, masculine style, she provokes all that she can with just her body, her presence. Her activism has been a way for her to find her place in the Luxembourgian LGBT+ milieu, but her personality clashes too much with the privileged, conservative trends of the lesbian club she frequents, so she rarely accomplishes anything. Instead she drinks a lot and sleeps with a lot of girls.

x Her mannerisms are brusque, she can definitely be unfriendly, is often provocative and brash, always very forward. She is the type to interrupt, challenge, attack and gloat, one after the other when she partakes in dialogue with someone, almost no matter who it is. She uses a sharp tone of voice when speaking and her poetry is a direct reflection of that sharpness. Overall, she's so unpleasant that she's lucky to be good in bed or she wouldn't get much company.

x She feels estranged from her surrounding world, especially from her parents and from Luxembourg that is so different, slick and conservative, from Hamburg where she had found a home in the underground before they moved away. This sense of estrangement makes her feel incredibly lonely and she only feeds this loneliness by acting the way she does. A part of her also clings to the loneliness as a catalyst for her writing, not quite realizing that she wouldn't produce any less if she were really happy.

x She's been single almost constantly since her arrival to Luxembourg. Before her big book release, she had one longer-lasting relationship, afterwards she's only had flings and affairs. As a rule, she's attracted to more feminine girls than herself, though she has slept with and still sleeps with butch types too. Romantically, however, she's only really into true femmes. She longs for someone to love and to be loved, but isn't ready to compromise to have that experience.

x Beneath the surface of chaos, hardness and sharpness, she is really a very sensitive and poetic person. She does care about others, although she rarely shows it and it's this caring nature which makes her shield herself off so aggressively. She puts these feelings into her poetry, as an undercurrent underneath the spikes and the spite.

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writing: Alexa has published a relatively successful poetry collection at a young age and has been working on her second collection of poetry ever since. She has a clean, direct and no-nonsense style.

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